For those in the dark: Let There Be Light

Often when I read scriptures the words zoom past, but my mind easily drifts into distraction. Such was the case when I read the lesson last week:  "Moses...creation story... I need to get that window fixed... what's for dinner...."  and away my mind goes!  

The skill of mindfulness helps me recognize that I'm off in la-la land and come back to the narrative at hand.  I imagine that for the monks who are "good at this mindfulness stuff," this looks like a gentle epiphany of awareness, with a wise nod, a little smile and a knowing sigh.  For me it looks more like --  "...CARRIE!  What are you doing!?  PAY ATTENTION!!"

And I'm back.  

I read the words, "And I God, said:  Let there be light; and there was light."  

I imagine the scene from the stage of my own head:  A giant thunderous God, high in the clouds, with huge billowing robes, wielding a golden sceptre;  He speaks in a booming voice, commanding to the darkness, "LET THERE BE LIGHT!!"  

Rather than rush, I sit.  I sit with the words.  I sit with the images of my own mind.  Curious and aware...

...and the story starts to settle and evolve.  Like one of those dot-pictures:  with focussed attention the random colors and blotches transform into a 3D image.

I start to see in this ancient biblical story my own journey.  Darkness.  I think of the times when I have felt small, hurting, and surrounded by enveloping, dense, darkness.  How far away God's Heavenly power has felt in those moments.  As I continue to sit with the words on the page, a different image arises.  I imagine the Savior, whispering to me, in deep empathy that comes from personal understanding.  He is not far away, He is here.  

Right here.  

Reaching to me, looking me in the eyes, whispering, offering, "Carrie, let there be light."  I feel His love, and His tender respect for my agency.  I sense the possibilities that He is offering if I will allow myself to receive it.  Oh, how I want that light!

Sometimes people ask me why I am interested in "Mindfulness."  Practicing mindfulness helps me be more present and focussed so I can hear such quiet epiphanies.  It helps turns "reading my scriptures" into actually connecting to the light.

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